The events and experiences recorded in this book took place
between 1980 and 1982. Except for some excerpts offered on eBay in the year 2000, the
manuscript has sat quietly in the closet for 20 years. Its relevance is as great now as it
was then. The reason why the author was hesitant to publish it will be evident to the
I hope it will be clear that I did not join the Mormon
Church with the object of disclosing its secrets (little did I know there was anything to
hide), but rather because I believed in it. The shock of the endowment ceremony in the
Mormon Temple in Washington, D.C. determined me to research its history with
results that confirmed my forebodings.
To preserve the flow of the narrative, facts have been left
as they were recorded in 1982, when the manuscript was written. Where subsequent events
are of interest, a comment is added in brackets to set it off from the original text.
I express my appreciation to the Firestone Library at
Princeton University for access to the stacks and manuscript sources.